STOP

Get Out of My Life

1. I would sell my soul for clear skin.

2. The meaning of life is having glasses ugly enough to make you look pretty.
3. I don't really feel like being a person, yet here we are.

***

Maybe if I

were instead

a baby bird,

you wouldn't always

have to come up

with excuses

for holding me,

soft and tender

in your hands.

Maybe if I

were instead

a baby bird,

I wouldn't always

have to come up

with excuses

for not flying away

from here.

***

Some days in this life, you are the tracks that lead off to some mysterious and wonderful distance. Some days you are the train, strong and filled with purpose and fire and the promise of a destination. Some days, my friends, you will be the coins and on those days, when the weight of the world is about to run you over and the tracks feel like they are frozen and silent, just remember…soon, someone will run to the tracks, ignore the distance they lead to, forget the sound of the train that passed, and search frantically for your transformed self, shining and smooth. They will pick you up, they will hold you forever and when age catches up to them, it won’t be the train or the tracks they will remember, it will be you, the coin.
***

Please
grab hold
of my neck
and whisper
sternly
into my ear
that you did not forget
to remember
me.
You did not forget
the way I warm you up,
the pace
of our love.
The way my heart is tender
or how hard you laugh?
The way I smell
or how my arms
hold you
like they were made
out of the empty space
that surrounds
you?

***

I stayed there, alone, waiting for the sound of your legs in the long grass. I waited there, quiet, watching for a glimpse of your hair in the wind. I am there still, tired, believing you will find me.
***

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In other news, Tyler Knott Gregson is a bro. My life is a mess. There is something fundamentally wrong with people who enjoy socializing. I literally don't want to be anything. The absence of something is where I'm sort of at right now, which is, ya know, awesome.